161,
obviously i dont know you, but im going to guess that you talk yourself out of things quite often.
like, an idea will come along and before you get started, you have already come up with all the reasons why it wont work or is not even worth trying.
this is a form of mental conditioning, and just like physical conditioning; the longer you do it; the better at it you get.
what eventually ends up happening is that your thoughts become like a tape loop repeating in your head, and it happens so fast that you dont even notice it happening anymore.
think about it. we all know how powerful our brains are. do you think it takes more than a half a second for a whole series of negative thoughts to cross our minds?
the good news is that you can change it.
the first step is to create a new internal dialogue.
the next time you find yourself unable to get up off the couch after thinking of something you want/need to get done; tell yourself, "im not going to trust that part of my brain that is telling me this isnt worth doing."
and do it anyway.
get up right at that moment, and do something.
who cares if you finish.
starting is the point.
remember that episode of seinfeld where george costanza does the opposite of what his instincts tell him, and it ends up working quite well for him?
its kind of like that.
you need to re-write your "tape loop".
i think you will find that once you get a small taste of success, that it suits you.
if you are using alcohol or drugs to self medicate, its time to take a break and learn to enjoy the feeling of sobriety again.
it actually feels pretty good!!!
and its hard to change anything when you are engaged in old habits.
you are a very powerful person, you just need to channel that power for something positive.
just do it!!!
good luck to you,
LC